I don't write many blog entries. I'm not a writer, and I doubt my daily stories has much potential to inspire. Lately my days are just filled with tasks to be done so I don't have to think about them anymore. Who wants to hear about that? But tonight is different. I think I've hit some sort of a mental wall. All the things that are happening are just blurred into one whirlwind, and I'm over telling everyone that I'm busy.
In regards to where my jewellery business is at, it's going fantastically considering it's interrupted by school and work. I'm juggling between replenishing popular designs, designing new things, filling in custom orders and updating my online presence. But thanks to the great people out there who follow my work, sales has been going quite steady even with no markets. CIT is going crazy preparing for Floriade and work in the florist is picking up also. With all this happening, Greg and I just bought our first house. We're going to move in there somehow soon before Floriade starts hopefully. We also have our 7 month old niece in the back of our mind who is in the hospital.
Tonight was supposed to be my 10 year school reunion. I could't cope with the thought of having to travel to Melbourne over a weekend with all this happening so I chose to stay at home. Greg is away to Sydney for the weekend leaving me alone, and I'm feeling a deep regret being alone doing nothing while everyone else is out there having a great time. Oh well, I've had a good run 10 years after school. I might still not be rich but I finally know what I want to do in life... I don't know if I'm good at it or not but at least I know I'm worth something.
Something happen to me this week that I thought was quite ironic and actually, I still don't quite understand. I was jobless in 2011, got depressed and thought I had nothing to give to the world. Somehow this year I got a confidence boost with Fenon doing very well and the significant Royal Easter Show win. You would think that with that kind of improvement it would give a big boost to my career. Yet things haven't really changed much and I still get problems. Until this day my boss still doesn't let me touch any work that is mildly interesting, I still get rejected to attend into a few markets and finally this week my teacher at school wouldn't let me get my hands on the floral jewellery making book because she doesn't want the rest of the class to get a shock when they see what I could do. And that kind of discourages me a little.
I live everyday having faith in God knowing that everything is under His control, so I'm not complaining. I'm simply standing here, observing His works in my life and the worldly view of the bi-product of my worldly achievements. When I was on the other side I always thought that if I could prove to all these people I'm worth something, maybe I will gain a bit of respect and my life will get infinitely better. It did get better, but I didn't realize being great doesn't just mean happy ending.
I never thought that if I climb the ladder higher it means the possibility of falling even harder. But thats Ok, I will never dwell on that. I'll just never ever look down.
In regards to where my jewellery business is at, it's going fantastically considering it's interrupted by school and work. I'm juggling between replenishing popular designs, designing new things, filling in custom orders and updating my online presence. But thanks to the great people out there who follow my work, sales has been going quite steady even with no markets. CIT is going crazy preparing for Floriade and work in the florist is picking up also. With all this happening, Greg and I just bought our first house. We're going to move in there somehow soon before Floriade starts hopefully. We also have our 7 month old niece in the back of our mind who is in the hospital.
Tonight was supposed to be my 10 year school reunion. I could't cope with the thought of having to travel to Melbourne over a weekend with all this happening so I chose to stay at home. Greg is away to Sydney for the weekend leaving me alone, and I'm feeling a deep regret being alone doing nothing while everyone else is out there having a great time. Oh well, I've had a good run 10 years after school. I might still not be rich but I finally know what I want to do in life... I don't know if I'm good at it or not but at least I know I'm worth something.
Something happen to me this week that I thought was quite ironic and actually, I still don't quite understand. I was jobless in 2011, got depressed and thought I had nothing to give to the world. Somehow this year I got a confidence boost with Fenon doing very well and the significant Royal Easter Show win. You would think that with that kind of improvement it would give a big boost to my career. Yet things haven't really changed much and I still get problems. Until this day my boss still doesn't let me touch any work that is mildly interesting, I still get rejected to attend into a few markets and finally this week my teacher at school wouldn't let me get my hands on the floral jewellery making book because she doesn't want the rest of the class to get a shock when they see what I could do. And that kind of discourages me a little.
I live everyday having faith in God knowing that everything is under His control, so I'm not complaining. I'm simply standing here, observing His works in my life and the worldly view of the bi-product of my worldly achievements. When I was on the other side I always thought that if I could prove to all these people I'm worth something, maybe I will gain a bit of respect and my life will get infinitely better. It did get better, but I didn't realize being great doesn't just mean happy ending.
I never thought that if I climb the ladder higher it means the possibility of falling even harder. But thats Ok, I will never dwell on that. I'll just never ever look down.
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